Letter to god

Dear God,

Yesterday I heard that you are available on internet. Today I discovered you on You tube. Found it bit peculiar, bizarre and least unexpected.So,has the Internet Made Finding Faith Easier, or More Difficult?Are preists & people really turning to the Internet to answer...I learnt about your site through this particular friend who had told me how she came it.I don't know how to describe it exactly,how I felt at that moment.Seriously I found it really puerile.And told myself- what..how funny it is that now you find God on net.Is it so easy?And I ignored laughing at myself.And moved on working.Then one day I was sitting with nothing to do.Suddenly I remembered my friend. I felt that stupid urge find out about it.But it was more of a coincidence, when I was browsing through the YouTube,Twitter ,Google & other sites I came across so many sites offering your service.I suddenly stopped at this and started listening to my MP-3. It crossed my mind what am I doing?While listening to songs,suddenly hanuman chalisa started in that song list.I got engrossed in it.The song was so lovely and scintillating that I was moved to tears !I suddenly felt that urge again to go through that site.

I searched till I found a site with Bhagwad gita teachings and songs.With the umpteenth failures search I saw you walking together with my destiny and nature.And I found you got the award from another god who had created you too.And you were looking on was stupendous and supercool with that award in hand.I realized that how much strenuous would it have been for to create us voilent creatures,nature and more.Then create troubles and beauty of life together and maintain it.I was wondering were did you disappear. Then I searched you on yahoo,Twitter, Instagram and every where.Where people are constantly trying to be a narcissistic.Then  finally found your heavenly site.I was surprised to see that you too is keeping with latest technology and social media addiction. Your particular case kept me haunting me through out the day.Because of other God's rapid rise to stardom and your obscurity from the same platform.It is surprising that in far off place where I don't know a god too can be available on net.Wow...and a thought crossed my brain.Maybe that why people have become astik.

From what I could see from my own life is I realized that i have made peace with myself finally.I have stopped fighting with myself and accepted everything as it is.Come what may I'm prepared.But it has been at some stage pretty very very difficult for me to carry on.It is not about reconciliation, it is just not being aggresive in life and going behind fame name money.It's all about acceptance. What will come to you will always come to you.Be it sorrows or happiness.What will be there in store for you is there for you.Maybe that is why I could never see you as you are also busy and embroiled in your life.Busy competing being in rat race for number one slot social media.You too don't have time for us.Funny but can be possible since NASA had declared that there is life source beyond earth and our imaginations.Many of my friends and known people have asked me this question always that how I kept so patiently kept my cool and positive.How I managed to not loose balance in life despite all this.They asked it must have been at some stage pretty difficult.Yes of course it has been and still a roller coaster life to me.Not to deny that fact.Sometimes even broke from within.Nevertheless I continued fighting with the holy unseen power who created us.I find this very interesting and would like to study more about myself and how i dealt with myself and how i could reconcile.Finally I continuous long profound struggle I found the answer to it.My personal experience probably has very basic profound answers to general human experience and linkages to our own failures and how we can handle life after we find that life is not always fair.Critics are everywhere, some are of that group whose only exercise is jumping to conclusions..sadly. I don't care much what other people say, think or do in relation to my life or achievements. I am only competing against myself in this life. Improvements are made through the encouragement of fellow friends and loved ones. No critic can ever destroy me or criticize me as much as I do myself. Therefore: God go ahead, do you best to rip me to pieces, I bet you that I have already seen my faults before you raised your words or voice against me.This is my inspiration to survival.Always had a question to ask you which has been banging me behind my head.How do you reconcile with the God who created you too?

Dear god.Please do not feel offended for these very personal questions, these are very personal questions of an inquisitive human experimenter.I would love to hear from you.Please for once reply back to my letter.Please consider me as a friend if possible and pardon me for every thing if in anyway I have made you feel offended.

With Best Regards,

Your Poor disciple

Me